Mommy fear and keeping faith...

 So Harm has had a really unique situation for a little over two years.  He barfs.  Just randomly once or twice a month he wakes up horribly barfy.  Our pediatrician said don't worry.  It isn't a big deal, just give him Zofran.  She explained it is probably connected to the night terrors that I have mentioned frequently in the blog.  So I accepted it.  I didn't want to be that parent.  Than this week she changed her mind.  She insisted we get a CT Scan right away.  She said by now he should have grown out of it but instead it is worse.


So we got the talk it is likely this, but it could be that...  That is a scary talk.  Than looking at the CT orders and seeing brain tumor as a possibility I have been more worried.  Reasonably I just know in my heart it isn't that worse case scenario.  It can not be.  Still I've been crushed by worry.  


As per Harm he was a champ today.  We did not have to sedate him!!!  He took the IV and he stayed still for that darn scan.  He was the AMAZING LITTLE MAN he just always is.  We will know hopefully tomorrow the results.  I have a good feeling.  After the scan it is off to see a gastroenterologist in El Paso and hopefully that will be some quick easy answers.  Still I will feel better in the morning.

On top of everything last night Cally got a bloody nose.  This is another odd common thing in our house with Callum.  It just bleeds.  My brother has a clotting disorder that is very serious but Cally's has always stayed in check.  Last night it didn't.  It lasted to the point where we might have considered a hospital trip and than it reopened while he was sleeping.  We woke up to him covered in blood everywhere!  So this will also be on the check list of "to-do's" with our pediatrician tomorrow.  Hopefully with a Vitamin K supplement this won't happen anymore.  


But gosh, does our family really need this?  I've tried not to complain but SERIOUSLY this year has been ridiculous!!!  These two boys have been through a lot just seeing what I've gone through.  I have always been an optimistic sunny person but holy crap I'm not feeling sunny.  Heavenly Father if you read blogs please give us all a break!!!!!