Time has a way of flying. Tonight I was pulling up a file and I accidentally opened some old pictures. I cannot look at my kids and than look at these pictures without wonder. It is like Holy Crab they are going to be dating and driving if I blink.
Last Friday I found out a dear friend of mine lost her husband. It made me so sad for her b/c I know she is in pain. I know her husband had a tough end and he is at peace. It made me realize though death is not that difficult for the people who go (unless you just are total jack a** in life), it is harder on the people who stay.
It makes me grateful for the pictures and the memories I make. I don't think I will ever wish Chris worked more, but I do wish sometimes we just played more. In that sense sometimes I am that same way. Stuck in my own groove of life and not appreciating the people around me. I don't think I'll be making any meals for my friend. I think she might be scared of whatever I would create. So I baked cookies. I do actually make decent cookies. I wish I could do more. There is not much you can do though in these situations but let people know you are there and you care.
Still, I can learn. Tomorrow I'm breaking a rule, we are going to do more cheesy family photos at Sears. I had promised I would do them the right way with Allison. With the accident though I forgot to schedule them. We will have her do nice ones in a few months, after her wedding season is up. Still, the kids keep getting bigger and I want more pictures. Chris and I had canceled our vacation this Summer because of the accident, but I think we need to reconsider that. After all it is the only time of the year it seems like we even connect. I can't just wait for life or go through the motions. Life is about appreciating it when you have it and loving those around you.