Sunday, June 10, 2012

Cookies, Pictures, and a funeral...

Time has a way of flying.  Tonight I was pulling up a file and I accidentally opened some old pictures.  I cannot look at my kids and than look at these pictures without wonder.  It is like Holy Crab they are going to be dating and driving if I blink. 


Last Friday I found out a dear friend of mine lost her husband.  It made me so sad for her b/c I know she is in pain.  I know her husband had a tough end and he is at peace.  It made me realize though death is not that difficult for the people who go (unless you just are total jack a** in life), it is harder on the people who stay.  



It makes me grateful for the pictures and the memories I make.  I don't think I will ever wish Chris worked more, but I do wish sometimes we just played more.  In that sense sometimes I am that same way.  Stuck in my own groove of life and not appreciating the people around me.  I don't think I'll be making any meals for my friend.  I think she might be scared of whatever I would create.  So I baked cookies.  I do actually make decent cookies.  I wish I could do more.  There is not much you can do though in these situations but let people know you are there and you care.  



Still, I can learn.  Tomorrow I'm breaking a rule, we are going to do more cheesy family photos at Sears.  I had promised I would do them the right way with Allison. With the accident though I forgot to schedule them.  We will have her do nice ones in a few months, after her wedding season is up.  Still, the kids keep getting bigger and I want more pictures.  Chris and I had canceled our vacation this Summer because of the accident, but I think we need to reconsider that. After all it is the only time of the year it seems like we even connect.  I can't just wait for life or go through the motions.  Life is about appreciating it when you have it and loving those around you.  

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Sunday, June 10, 2012

Cookies, Pictures, and a funeral...

Time has a way of flying.  Tonight I was pulling up a file and I accidentally opened some old pictures.  I cannot look at my kids and than look at these pictures without wonder.  It is like Holy Crab they are going to be dating and driving if I blink. 


Last Friday I found out a dear friend of mine lost her husband.  It made me so sad for her b/c I know she is in pain.  I know her husband had a tough end and he is at peace.  It made me realize though death is not that difficult for the people who go (unless you just are total jack a** in life), it is harder on the people who stay.  



It makes me grateful for the pictures and the memories I make.  I don't think I will ever wish Chris worked more, but I do wish sometimes we just played more.  In that sense sometimes I am that same way.  Stuck in my own groove of life and not appreciating the people around me.  I don't think I'll be making any meals for my friend.  I think she might be scared of whatever I would create.  So I baked cookies.  I do actually make decent cookies.  I wish I could do more.  There is not much you can do though in these situations but let people know you are there and you care.  



Still, I can learn.  Tomorrow I'm breaking a rule, we are going to do more cheesy family photos at Sears.  I had promised I would do them the right way with Allison. With the accident though I forgot to schedule them.  We will have her do nice ones in a few months, after her wedding season is up.  Still, the kids keep getting bigger and I want more pictures.  Chris and I had canceled our vacation this Summer because of the accident, but I think we need to reconsider that. After all it is the only time of the year it seems like we even connect.  I can't just wait for life or go through the motions.  Life is about appreciating it when you have it and loving those around you.  

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