My Secret's Finally Revealed!!!

First off my niece might get released from the hospital soon!!!! Hopefully...

A few weeks ago I posted about all these changes I was making. At the time I wasn't going into into any detail over what I was doing (and I'm still not going to give every detail b/c poor Chris does worry about us maintaining some sort of privacy). Nonetheless, I really wanted this week to talk and it was sooo frustrating not being able to really do that all on the blog. This blog is where I just let everything go and being so secretive just isn't me.

So a few weeks ago I stepped away from a lot of things but it wasn't so simple. I was really looking forward to a new work opportunity but now isn't the time. So I'm staying put in that sense. (This is the part where I need to keep the privacy more).

So the real secret was that I was starting to take a few business classes to prepare for eventually getting an MBA when the kids were older. I just figure that is the next logical step... Anyhow so I enrolled in this accounting class and micro-economics class. I realized I HATE ACCOUNTING. If I hate accounting, I will probably hate statistics, etc. etc. That made me realize Wednesday night life is short, dang this if I'm going to take some classes to enrich my life and give me something personal... well than I'm going to go do classes I'm interested in! After all there was a reason I choose to study theatre for my undergrad ;) I know if I really wanted I could do it, I just realized I don't want it.

So I'm now taking a rhetoric because I always want to improve my written expression and I'm going to take a literature class so I can have an excuse to read some more books. I love books and I never read b/c I feel like I don't have time. So I get to write and read! For a dyslexic person I know, I have odd hobbies but it makes me happy even if I won't ever end up a Jane Austin or William F. Buckley. When in my life have I ever taken a logical step? I've always gone my own path and it has worked out really well for me so far... I don't know if these classes will lead to anything in the long run. It is merely my hope that I can take these classes and enjoy something that interests me. With all that I'm doing I don't need to be worrying about my next grand step.

Final Verdict: I'm still doing some stuff for me... I'm just not trying to reinvent my life all at once. One small step at a time rather than an Extreme Makeover like I attempted. I get very restless. This way I still won't miss out on moments with the little critters and I won't feel like I have my head in a blender. I just really appreciate all the support and encouragement my friends provided me while I was trying to figure this all out. Especially Miriam, she just was so optimistic but realistic and very patient with me trying to juggle everything at once. I'm really blessed to be surrounded by great people.