The battle lines are being drawn!

WE ARE OVERBOOKED AS A FAMILY!!!  With new challenges working and new activities, I've decided we are way overbooked this semester.  I think the hardest part about being a mom these days is that we have so many wonderful activities that my children want to do but I struggle to balance.  

The problem is that as a family we only have well Sunday where we don't have either sports, dance or gym.  I have tried to handle this dilemma in the best way I know how, we shouldn't be doing sports.  After all the gym and dance is in the same place and has WiFi and air-conditioning and/or heating.  They also have concessions: sodas, fresh popcorn, ottis spunkmeyer cookies, etc.  That is called watching your kids in style!  Unfortunately Chris thinks that is blasphemy.  That his children, especially his boys need to be doing manly sports.  

I don't get it!  Harm's coach David (pictured above) can do a triple flip.  I would challenge a 16 yr old football player to do that.  There is nothing wrong with sports at all!!!  My brothers used to do both.  My eldest 1/2 brothers did everything from gym to football to even ballet at one point.  No one would ever try to tell them in all their athletic glory they were not real men.  My problem with sports really just comes from connivence.  The t-ball is very challenging at 3x a week practices and 2 hour games weekly (sometimes 2x a week).  If it were not for Harm's coach in soccer and t-ball and his wonderful wife Crystal there is no way I would even consider this (after all last season Harm's favorite thing was to sleep in the outfield).  The twins soccer is on the other side of town and they expect us to sit on grass which makes my allergies go bonkers.

So for now, the deal has been made.  I do all the gym and Chris does all the sports.  That means he has to leave work early to get the twins to soccer and Harm to practice.  He organizes their stuff and makes sure they are where they need to be.  Crystal (thank Heavens) really helps fill in the blanks a lot when he can't do it.  I, on the other hand, am officially the gym mom.  This year all 3 kids were moved up and I am super duper blessed that this means that we have practice only for one hour on Tue, Fri, and Sat.  

This works this year, but next year Harm might be on the competition team and if that is the case we might be sparring over the great debate.

Happy Birthday to My Little Harmon Cakes!!!

I think I write on this blog how amazing it is to be Harm's mom.  He is just such a wonderful kid!  It breaks my heart and fills me with joy to see him growing up.  He is a kid who can change the world one day, I know this because he has already changed mine!  Here are some brief moments of a beautiful life :)

Personal growth in the New Year....

The last five months have been interesting.  Since deciding not to attend ASU there have been a lot of ups and downs for me.

I'm still in a lot of limbo with everything in life.  I started my MBA this fall but I've come to realize this just isn't for me.  Sitting in a finance classes I considered that swallowing a large amount of D-Con might be less painful than trying to figure out how to estimate a firm's cost of capital.  I realized at that point I was doing it more to prove to other people that I could do it, that I was because I wanted to do it.  Since moving here to Las Cruces I have at times to meet other's expectations and the criticism I've been getting has been really hard at times.

Now I realize that the people who I owe to not let down, are my children and myself.  One thing that I am incredibly proud of was completing my first fiction piece.  It isn't quite done because I rewrite everything but I did submit it this Tuesday and with the help of some of my former professors it is solid.  I've been also started branching out on my own.  I started doing freelance marketing jobs and it has been a lot of fun.  I get to challenge myself to do what I do well, and become even better at it.

I have some big decisions to make soon as per my future and I am trying to not look backwards anymore.  Rather, I'm just working my tail off and trying to have faith that I will know the next steps I should take and take care of myself and my children first.  I like what Katy Perry said about writing her song "Roar".  At that time she didn't feel to great about herself so she wrote a song about being the women she wanted to be, someone she wanted to be, and than worked into becoming that person. That is where I'm at right now in my life.