I am based out of my home and it is different. That is part of the reason why my nanny and I are so close. We really do see each other every single day. The best part is the kids see me everyday and I get to have Gordon Ramsey on BBC in the background if I'm stuck on the computer. Also with Rachel's Cerebral Palsy I can actively manage her therapy. We have people coming in and out all day and before they leave I can meet up with them for 5 minutes and know exactly what is going on. When I eat lunch instead of cafes and co-workers I'm often seated with curly head twins and a lively Miriam. Even though the food is normally a frozen delicacy you can't beat the company. The best part is when I leave and come back I see the smiles. Yesterday when I came back home Rachel let me know she missed me! It was very cute!
Honestly I miss being in a real office a lot. When we first had Harmon it was a huge thorn in our marriage if I should stay at home or work in an office. This in between life I live is our compromise. I always read in the media: "The Battle Between Stay at Home Moms vs Working Moms!!!!!!" You read studies and one day one lifestyle is ideal and the other day the other lifestyle is ideal. I really believe that is a myth. It is finding what works best for you and your children is the right choice and forget about what anyone else thinks. I wish society didn't put so much pressure on moms that it makes them second guess themselves.
Come August it will all be over somewhat. The twins will be in pre-k 4 days a week from 8:30 to 2. Miriam will be starting her career in marketing or Graphic Design(she is really overqualified hanging out with us), and I will have the peace and quiet to really get things done. I should be overjoyed but I'm not. I will miss having the kids play games loudly in the other room. It won't be the same. So for now all I can do is take advantage of the moments I have now, even if it means I have to escape to Starbucks with my laptop at 7 pm at night to finish something in peace and quiet. Life is all about phases and soon I will be in a new phase that I'm sure I will also love. For now though I am just loving what I have.