Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Gotta stop the hating on myself!

Yesterday was just a great day. It wasn't anything particular, I was just on a roll. Callum was just doing great with his speech, had some good meetings, found a great cake for the twin's party, etc. It was just a peaceful good day for the most part. Today WASN'T!!!!


I woke up at 3 am in severe pain and couldn't fall asleep again till 6. I was late to an appointment, my inbox was a house of horrors, got in a drop dead drag out fight with Chris on the way to El Paso about expansion and football, they discontinued my 2 favorite meals at Panda Express (Barbecued Pork and Kung Pao Shrimp), my inlaws sprung a surprise family reunion on us for the weekend, we had to leave mid-meal at Chick-Fil-A b/c the kids were acting like wild baboons, etc. etc. etc. The worse part was I just didn't really spend any quality time with my critters. Seriously it was a bad day!

It just got me down. The final revelationI got a cook book tonight and Chris nicely said: you sure have a lot of those things. It hit me, I buy cookbooks all the time but HATE cooking. I've even joined online menu groups, planned meals, etc. but I don't like it. I don't even know what a Dutch Oven is and when Chris told me I had no desire to ever have one. I keep thinking if I keep buying these books I will suddenly wake up Betty Crocker but it isn't going to happen.

I think days like this I just start getting down on myself. I feel like I'm just not doing anything in my life very well. I'm balancing so much but it seems like nothing is quite up to my standards. I know that I'm being unrealistic and I know tomorrow these feelings will dissipate. Kids are not always going to be perfect angels. Good mother's are not judged by how well they cook. Just b/c Chris and I might not see eye to eye on every matter doesn't mean my reasoning isn't valid. I know these things, but right now, tonight I just don't feel like I'm doing that great.

I'm going to take some extra meds, have a good night sleep, and go from there. Life is always better in the morning... well after 10 am (I'm not a good morning person the first few hours I'm awake).
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  1. UnknownJuly 28, 2011 at 9:50 PM

    Sounds like you had my day yesterday. Tomorrow will be better. :) Take two of these and call me in the morning. It was a commercial with a little boy holding a cookie in each hand. :) Sweet dreams.

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  2. AmyAugust 1, 2011 at 9:54 AM

    Oh you poor thing! You had one of those days. I am so sorry. They are the worst. But they are there so we can appreciate the good days so much more. Just think, your next good day will be even better because you know how good it is, all because you had a day where everything went wrong.

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Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Gotta stop the hating on myself!

Yesterday was just a great day. It wasn't anything particular, I was just on a roll. Callum was just doing great with his speech, had some good meetings, found a great cake for the twin's party, etc. It was just a peaceful good day for the most part. Today WASN'T!!!!


I woke up at 3 am in severe pain and couldn't fall asleep again till 6. I was late to an appointment, my inbox was a house of horrors, got in a drop dead drag out fight with Chris on the way to El Paso about expansion and football, they discontinued my 2 favorite meals at Panda Express (Barbecued Pork and Kung Pao Shrimp), my inlaws sprung a surprise family reunion on us for the weekend, we had to leave mid-meal at Chick-Fil-A b/c the kids were acting like wild baboons, etc. etc. etc. The worse part was I just didn't really spend any quality time with my critters. Seriously it was a bad day!

It just got me down. The final revelationI got a cook book tonight and Chris nicely said: you sure have a lot of those things. It hit me, I buy cookbooks all the time but HATE cooking. I've even joined online menu groups, planned meals, etc. but I don't like it. I don't even know what a Dutch Oven is and when Chris told me I had no desire to ever have one. I keep thinking if I keep buying these books I will suddenly wake up Betty Crocker but it isn't going to happen.

I think days like this I just start getting down on myself. I feel like I'm just not doing anything in my life very well. I'm balancing so much but it seems like nothing is quite up to my standards. I know that I'm being unrealistic and I know tomorrow these feelings will dissipate. Kids are not always going to be perfect angels. Good mother's are not judged by how well they cook. Just b/c Chris and I might not see eye to eye on every matter doesn't mean my reasoning isn't valid. I know these things, but right now, tonight I just don't feel like I'm doing that great.

I'm going to take some extra meds, have a good night sleep, and go from there. Life is always better in the morning... well after 10 am (I'm not a good morning person the first few hours I'm awake).
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  1. UnknownJuly 28, 2011 at 9:50 PM

    Sounds like you had my day yesterday. Tomorrow will be better. :) Take two of these and call me in the morning. It was a commercial with a little boy holding a cookie in each hand. :) Sweet dreams.

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  2. AmyAugust 1, 2011 at 9:54 AM

    Oh you poor thing! You had one of those days. I am so sorry. They are the worst. But they are there so we can appreciate the good days so much more. Just think, your next good day will be even better because you know how good it is, all because you had a day where everything went wrong.

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