The other day a good friend of mine announced her pregnancy. A couple of yeara ago we were trying at the same time. She not having infertility beat me of course. I remember feeling back than, happy for her but sad that it was so hard for us. This time when she announced her pregnancy I had very different feelings. I was still VERY happy for her but rather than sad I won't ever be pregnant again I was happy for me.
I feel very complete these days. I love my little critters, I love my husband, and I'm even learning to like somewhat living out in a one horse town. When the kids get older I'm excited to further my education with a graduate degree and Chris and I talk about me starting a business of my own (far far away from homebuilding which was always Chris' dream).
I still have many dreams to fulfill in life but while they are in the process I am very happy to have what I have. I feel complete as an adult and excited to see what is next not only for me but for all of us!