Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Should I be happy or devasted????


I think I could feel two ways about what happened today.

First I want to be happy, today we got a definitive answer to why I was getting so sick. Well they didn't put in the Paragurd right so it was it was cutting into me and I was having a severe reaction causing really bad bleeding and edema (I've gained 10 lbs in water weight). So today it was taken out. I should be feeling better in a couple of days. Already the swelling is subsiding.

But than I want to cry. I have an annual $5,000 deductible so I try to be very careful whenever I need to go to the doctor because unless I get really sick it will be all out of pocket. When I break down the expenses: $600 for the paragurd, $120 for consultation, $120 for actual insertion, $80 for my general MD b/c we didn't realize the edema was from the paragurd, $120 for new gynecologist to take it out, and probably another $75 for labs which means I pretty much threw a $1000 dollars down the drain. I just keep thinking over and over again what I could have used this money for.

Than I started talking to people and they talked about the same thing happening to them or their loved ones except it wasn't caught early like I caught it. They needed serious surgeries, got pregnant, etc. I realized it could have been worse and I should count my blessings.

So when all was said and done I spent a ton of money, got a lot of cramping, bleeding, swelling, and feeling like crap... only to end up back on birth control pills (I used to be on the ring but he said he doesn't full trust it b/c it can get out of place easily), but it could have been worse!

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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Should I be happy or devasted????


I think I could feel two ways about what happened today.

First I want to be happy, today we got a definitive answer to why I was getting so sick. Well they didn't put in the Paragurd right so it was it was cutting into me and I was having a severe reaction causing really bad bleeding and edema (I've gained 10 lbs in water weight). So today it was taken out. I should be feeling better in a couple of days. Already the swelling is subsiding.

But than I want to cry. I have an annual $5,000 deductible so I try to be very careful whenever I need to go to the doctor because unless I get really sick it will be all out of pocket. When I break down the expenses: $600 for the paragurd, $120 for consultation, $120 for actual insertion, $80 for my general MD b/c we didn't realize the edema was from the paragurd, $120 for new gynecologist to take it out, and probably another $75 for labs which means I pretty much threw a $1000 dollars down the drain. I just keep thinking over and over again what I could have used this money for.

Than I started talking to people and they talked about the same thing happening to them or their loved ones except it wasn't caught early like I caught it. They needed serious surgeries, got pregnant, etc. I realized it could have been worse and I should count my blessings.

So when all was said and done I spent a ton of money, got a lot of cramping, bleeding, swelling, and feeling like crap... only to end up back on birth control pills (I used to be on the ring but he said he doesn't full trust it b/c it can get out of place easily), but it could have been worse!

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