and I've no idea how to balance things. I get advice that is always contradictory... "Harmon needs you" or "Harmon is fine your babies need you". I think in my heart I know they all need me and it makes it difficult b/c I can't be there for everyone.
Last night I went to the hospital late at night b/c I just knew something was off. It wasn't a serious deal but it was important I was there. The nurses had gotten a different protocol than our doctor had said. I raised some cane and rushed home in the rain. When I got home late Harmon was inconsolable. Thank Heavens for Daddy who was there to comfort him. I felt almost defeated.
I miss the days Harmon and I would run around town having lunch and getting work done. I miss just being at home with him. I worry how this affects him. Stability at this age is so important.
I envy the women who are there in the NICU for hours a day just watching their angels sleep. I wish I never left them. My heart breaks every time I leave them.
For our family and friends who have been there I can not tell you how much your help has meant to us. For those who have prayed for us and sent well wishes thank you. We simply can't do this all on our own. I don't know how we are going to do all this but I do know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
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and I've no idea how to balance things. I get advice that is always contradictory... "Harmon needs you" or "Harmon is fine your babies need you". I think in my heart I know they all need me and it makes it difficult b/c I can't be there for everyone.
Last night I went to the hospital late at night b/c I just knew something was off. It wasn't a serious deal but it was important I was there. The nurses had gotten a different protocol than our doctor had said. I raised some cane and rushed home in the rain. When I got home late Harmon was inconsolable. Thank Heavens for Daddy who was there to comfort him. I felt almost defeated.
I miss the days Harmon and I would run around town having lunch and getting work done. I miss just being at home with him. I worry how this affects him. Stability at this age is so important.
I envy the women who are there in the NICU for hours a day just watching their angels sleep. I wish I never left them. My heart breaks every time I leave them.
For our family and friends who have been there I can not tell you how much your help has meant to us. For those who have prayed for us and sent well wishes thank you. We simply can't do this all on our own. I don't know how we are going to do all this but I do know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Last night I went to the hospital late at night b/c I just knew something was off. It wasn't a serious deal but it was important I was there. The nurses had gotten a different protocol than our doctor had said. I raised some cane and rushed home in the rain. When I got home late Harmon was inconsolable. Thank Heavens for Daddy who was there to comfort him. I felt almost defeated.
I miss the days Harmon and I would run around town having lunch and getting work done. I miss just being at home with him. I worry how this affects him. Stability at this age is so important.
I envy the women who are there in the NICU for hours a day just watching their angels sleep. I wish I never left them. My heart breaks every time I leave them.
For our family and friends who have been there I can not tell you how much your help has meant to us. For those who have prayed for us and sent well wishes thank you. We simply can't do this all on our own. I don't know how we are going to do all this but I do know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
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This is a small part of their lives, and one they won't remember. You will more then make up for it when they are older.
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You are an amazing mommy.
Be patient, sweet Francisca ~ these little ones are going to make it, and you will too. You and Chris are doing an amazing job juggling all of this. Someday soon you will be able to sit back with those babies and Harmon and tell them such stories about how you got through all this!
ReplyDelete(Mr&MrsS) You are an amazing Mom, dont you ever doubt that! It is all an adjustment, and it will take time before life goes back to normal (or your new normal), but all of your babies know that you love them. I wish I had as much strength as you...I know you will get through this!!
ReplyDeleteI agree that they won't remember it. Taylor doesn't remember any of it. He turned 3 while Shanna was in the hospital. Everytime he sees the pictures he has so many questions- he doesn't remember any of it. I am so thankful that Shanna has no memory that I know of, of any of what happened to her in the Hospital. They treated her wonderfully, but had to poke her hundreds of times. I worried about Taylor so much, and then worried about Shanna- It will never stop, never did when Shanna came home either. I know that you will do great! We all know that you and Chris love all three of your beautiful children. All of them will do great!
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This is a small part of their lives, and one they won't remember. You will more then make up for it when they are older.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing mommy.
Be patient, sweet Francisca ~ these little ones are going to make it, and you will too. You and Chris are doing an amazing job juggling all of this. Someday soon you will be able to sit back with those babies and Harmon and tell them such stories about how you got through all this!
ReplyDelete(Mr&MrsS) You are an amazing Mom, dont you ever doubt that! It is all an adjustment, and it will take time before life goes back to normal (or your new normal), but all of your babies know that you love them. I wish I had as much strength as you...I know you will get through this!!
ReplyDeleteI agree that they won't remember it. Taylor doesn't remember any of it. He turned 3 while Shanna was in the hospital. Everytime he sees the pictures he has so many questions- he doesn't remember any of it. I am so thankful that Shanna has no memory that I know of, of any of what happened to her in the Hospital. They treated her wonderfully, but had to poke her hundreds of times. I worried about Taylor so much, and then worried about Shanna- It will never stop, never did when Shanna came home either. I know that you will do great! We all know that you and Chris love all three of your beautiful children. All of them will do great!
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