Bottling Happiness!

So my doctor in El Paso had a big frank discussion today with me.  My blood tests showed some numbers that were lagging and some lost weight.  I got the whole, "I can treat your symptoms with medication but if you're not taking care of yourself it doesn't matter."  Afterwards I took a walk in my mom's cemetery and stumbled upon a section for small children and babies who had passed.  It made me think about close I was to losing Rachey and how precious each of my children are.

It made me realize that the only thing that has kept me going are my angels here on earth with me.  I don't know where I would be if it were not for them.  When I'm with them, each of them makes me smile.  I have to fix boo boos and break up toy fights.  They need balanced meals and warm clean clothes.  I watch them at the gym just nailing their jumps or I talk to their teachers and hear how they are being kind to other students.  We eat yummies and just always cuddle.

The fact is that you can't blame the flu on sadness but my doctor is correct.  Eating well and taking better care of myself is something I need to do more of.  But what she might not know is that I do have a magical elixir that has and will keep me going.   It won't be easy and it's not easy but I am grateful everyday for all my little joys.