Time for College!!!!

The papers are all signed and the kids are doing orientation visits next week.  My babies are just not babies!!!!  AHHH!!!!!

So we decided to go with the formal fancy pre-k after all.  I really wanted the fine arts one where the kids could dance tap and ballet all day long and sing and all those arts things I love.  But I asked Chris to take ownership and he actually camped out for it!  Everyone I speak with loves the school and I really think it is gonna be good.  


With that said this is hard on me.  They are very formal and strict and I'm not.  I asked if I could "kidnap" them here or there for a fun day and was told that missing time ruins their academic continuity so the answer is no.  Their manual is all about things like this.  Lovies are of the devil.  It socially-emotionally holds them from succeeding the manual stated.  I already fear I will end up in the principals office with these guys on the first week.  I think Chris is right, with my free spirit the kids will have a good balance.

It seems a little odd to me but I think I'm just still biased in my heart.  Part of me is sad they are moving on and growing up.  I will miss them.  All this I've wanted time to myself b/c it is so hard working and trying to balance being a mommy but now that the time is here I'm going to miss it so much.  I'm gonna miss Miriam and I'm sad she won't be there for them every day.  She loves them and I just don't think any one else will show them that love.  And they won't.  She will always be part of their lives.  They love her and even though she won't be here every day she will still be family.  


This is what my mom teases me about "passages".  It that changing of time that deep down it hurts our heart but they are the changes that make life progress.  I remember when we left Vegas and started HB I was heartbroken but it has taken me places I never would have gone.  Now we are on the cusp of something else new and wonderful.  The kids are ecstatic.  The school is great we are going to attend (even though I tease about it a lot).  I think it is us adults who are taking this change a little hard.