Today I think I hit my limit. SERIOUSLY! I finally got to that point where I could say "Heavenly Father I can't take this anymore!" Chris woke up in a sad mood today, there were problems everywhere I turned and still just overwhelmed with worry. Finally at around lunch time another crisis occurred and I just hid for a few minutes... and cried. Of course I came out and with a little prayer I just started dealing with everything. By the time the evening came I just sat and enjoyed my 3 babies and my wonderful husband. Now life doesn't seem so hopeless, just a little daunting.
So for those wondering I still don't really know what to do with Rachel's new diagnoses. I just know we need to be aggressive so I met with the pediatrician this morning. I than met with the social worker and she will be helping us gather information b/c I don't know much about cerebral palsy at all. I also coordinated w/others about getting the best therapy regimen to help her get as much control possible of her little body. Monday I will know more and I will update about that than. Whatever it takes Rachel is going to have the best help we can find and she is such a fighter I know she will thrive.
I guess that is the trick about life... even when things seem bleak you either jump back in or basically nothing will ever get better. I think I don't always want to jump back in but it beats the alternative.
Cute Rachel story today while I was meeting with someone he asked to borrow a pen. I lent it to him and Rachel saw him place it on the bar behind the couch. She climbed up the couch and back down to the floor with the pen in hand ready to write on the paper left on the floor. CP or no CP she is still a super hero!
So this may sound weird, but gosh I love that girl! Even without officially meeting her, I just love her. Good on you for getting things taken care of. I know that will help you cope as well. Just have faith and don't worry so much. It will all work out in the end, you'll see.
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